ready to start.....

so, my colleagues and i have been speculating for weeks (over a month) that there were layoffs on the horizon with no official word from the large corporation for which i work (hereforeto will be referred to as "the man").

now, it has been beyond difficult to find the motivation to work as i and my team will likely be directly impacted as a result of the cutbacks that are about to occur.  when? sometime between now and the end of the year was the timeframe the rumor mill cranked out.  but as the weeks passed, a certain month became the repeated timeframe.  and for the past couple of weeks, it was a certain day.  this week has ticked by painstakingly slowly, and BOOM!  all of a sudden, i open up an email today from the man, himself, talking about "streamlining" (read: layoffs) and "restructuring" (translation: plopping people into different positions under different management teams with different objectives).  the man went on to say a minimal number of employees would be "exiting" the organization in order to build a company culture of performance (in other words: i hope you brownosed for high marks on your yearly evaluations, buddy, or you don't stand a chance of "reincarnation" in this organization!)


and when is all this to occur???  you guessed it.  the dreaded date that has been flying around these parts.  turns out the rumor mill is more like a rumor mole!  


it's times like these that i'm glad people can't keep secrets to save their lives because now, i'm mentally prepared for whatever may happen.  i could've been blindsided by the man, but thanks to my fellow peeps in the trenches, we're all looking out for one another...to some extent. or maybe someone needed to know that they're not alone in the struggle to stay employed after all this mess.  


either way, i'm not leaving until i get my severance check!  and it makes me no less nervous that i will likely be receiving a call very soon to inform me of my fate.  but i must say, it couldn't come sooner.  these past weeks have been stifling to the point of paralysis.  i'm ready to know and move on!


i'm going to be sure to get in a run that morning, so that the pill goes down with the sweetness of a clear mind and good ol' endorphins  instead of the bitter taste of overwhelming stress that hasn't yet been run out of my system.   *sigh*.........


ce la vie.....i guess i'll catch you on the flipside where, certainly, the grass will be greener :)