ch-ch-ch-ch-changes!

it's not just the weather that's changing this fall.  sure, the cool breeze has brought some nostalgic memories of times past.  but if all the stress of preparing for this fall's changes doesn't kill me, the uncertainty of what the future holds certainly will.  

so many of the decisions left to be made are teeter tottering on ONE HUGE event, that may or may not take place.  you got it, i have zero control over this one.  and what a difficult thing for anybody, much moreso the control freak that i happen to be.  over the past year (though it feels sooo much longer), there have been a lot of signs that make the control i thought i had over my life that much more of an illusion.  

i think i'm picking up a signal:  .....oooooOOOOOOooooo............something about greater forces at work....one door closes, and another opens......let go.........the book's been written.......oooooooooOOOOOOOOooooooo...........

yeah, i don't know what that's all about!  can't i just get a break, greater forces!  GEEZ!  cut me some slack!!!!